Maybe this time

Dear Baby,

I am two days into the dreaded "2WW" - the two-week window between the IUI procedure and the beta blood test.  Two days in, and nearly every waking moment is consumed with thoughts of you, and wondering if you are beginning to come into existence, or if this will be yet another failed attempt.  I try to be positive, but then again not to get my hopes up too much, and I am caught in this conundrum known only among the TTC community.

1998 was a bad year in Mommy's family.  I lost three grandparents in seven months - my Grandpa (Grammy's Daddy) in April, my Nana (Papa D's Mommy) in June, and my Grandma (Grammy's Mommy) in October.  When my sister, your Doda A., announced that she was pregnant shortly after my Grandma died, it was so wonderful.  It was the first bright spot for our family in what seemed like forever.

Right now, your cousin DD is fighting leukemia.  And your Grammy is fighting breast cancer.  Their diagnoses came just a couple of weeks apart.  And I would love to give the family good news...so please, dear baby, please be on your way.

Love,
the infertile turtle
who hates waiting, but hears it's a good skill for a Mommy to have